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when facing the crossroads.

2012-03-04T10:40:00.003-08:00

hardest words are good bye
but you cant say that we haven't tried
twist and turned, back and forth
bending over backwards to get this relationship to work
going to miss waking up to your beautiful smile
and all the good and bad times we shared
you will always have a special place in my heart

K.

2011-09-23T01:04:00.001-07:00

I haven't seen your face for a while and it still makes me weak.

Goin Back

2011-09-16T03:10:00.000-07:00

Back to the beat, back to my roots. I'm going back dancing.

My mind is messed up.

2011-09-14T13:06:00.000-07:00

Today have been a day of thoughts. Been thinking about my messed up childhood with an abusive mother, a dad gone disappeared. But atleast I had a great stepdad, so I didn't turn out totally f up, just a little bit.

Let me tell you my story.
Since I was a baby I never knew my mom. I was adopted to a family in Thailand and I still miss them alot. When I was 7 years old a woman appeared and claimed to my mother, but she never really was, and I still dont consider her as my mother. In my eyes I'm an orphan trying to walk this path of life all alone. But good thing is I'm not alone, I have my friends with the same troubles as me, trying to walk ahead together and fight every lifes obstacle together.

I have alot of anger towards my mom, but can't really hate her because in fact she gave me life, but all the anger I have against her make me not able to love myself. I'm trying to overcome that right now, but that I gotto do alone, and doing something like that alone is rough.

I dont want to share every detail in my heart to my blog, since it's worldwide, so I keep 99% in my heart. Until that day I find the one I can share everything with, I will also share my troubled heart, but to find a girl is not hard, but to find a girl I can share my troubled heart, who can handle my troubled heart, that seems impossible.

K.

Hinder Better Than Me

2011-09-14T11:29:00.001-07:00

My deep dark secret.

K.

Forbidden Games on Classic Guitar.

2011-09-07T15:41:00.000-07:00

Very Nice!

K.

On my own.

2011-09-05T11:49:00.000-07:00

It's hard to continue ahead on my own
What name is it on my dads gravestone
I dont know
But I dont need him, I'm all grown

I'm just a simple guy trying to make his stand
Protect everythin I've built up with my own hands
Just trying to be the best man I can
Make mistakes and learn. That's my plan.
K.

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Most of you probably know I grew up without my dad. Never seen his face, but my mom and my aunties tell me that I look exactly like him. 25 years have passed and never I've received his guidance, but I guess I doing ok on my own. Keep my head up and fight the next day. If you're in my position I suggest you do the same. You're not alone, even tho it feels like it from time to time.

ILLSLICK Feat. KK (THAIKOON) - I Need A Girl Remix Official Music video

2011-09-04T10:59:00.000-07:00

Doesn't he look exactly like Wiz Khalifa, but Thai? haha :)

K.

THAI PRIDE

2011-09-04T10:48:00.000-07:00

Thai hiphop is getting big :)

K.

HOT NEW TRACK!

2011-09-04T09:18:00.001-07:00

Chillin at home with ma boys playing ps3.
To be honest, this single life is awesome, no more chasin girls. All I want to do is live my life, concentrate on growing as a person and also grow my bank account. It's travel time!

For those who didn't know, I went to London this summer it was awesome. Had a chance to meat my auntie and my cousins. Then I went to Holland, that was awesome. Gonna upload pictures later! More to come!

Walkin' On the Moon

2011-09-02T06:09:00.000-07:00

Thank you for always being you.

K.

Get up and get something

2011-09-01T16:37:00.000-07:00

Dont wait for time. Use it.
Dont wait for love. Feel it.
Dont wait for money. Make it.
Dont wait for a path. Find it.
Dont wait for an opportunity. Create it.

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Dont wait for nothing, because nothing will come to you. If you want something you need to grab out and reach it. That's exacly what I'm doing now. Wish me luck.

K.

Grisen&Hamster

2011-08-31T14:54:00.001-07:00

This is a private message. You know who you are.

After all these years, I still cant believe you are always following my life, reading my blog. Even tho I didn't write anything for a year, you still checked once a while, a couple of times a month. I always wondered why.

Grisen, det va till dig. Lämna en kommentar :)

Live & Learn.

2011-08-31T12:41:00.000-07:00

I still do mistakes but I learn
Got alot of luggage I want to burn
They say what dont kill you makes you stronger
Everyday my life seems to grow longer
If that's the case I'm the strongest man
Even superman needs a helping hand
From time to time I want to cry
Dont care if people are walking by
I wear them tears with pride
A smile grows, cuz I have friends by my side.

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Everyday we make mistakes, but also by every mistake there's a chance to learn. Learn not to redo them mistakes. If we are afraid of making mistakes, how then can we grow as people, as human beings, as adults? Thats my way of life, and I hope someone in the universe is thinking the same.

K.

Lost Little Girl

2011-08-28T22:42:00.000-07:00

A Lost Little Girl in a mans world
She've lost the man she is hunting
Cant find his heart so she continue her search

A Lost Little Girl in a mans world
Trying to find someone who can fill her mans place
Everywhere she looked she saw wrong faces
But she erased them and replaced them with his
Looking for some comfort from another
But all she wants is her man, his touch his lips.

A Lost Little Girl in a mans world
Follow her friends as her guidance
Little she know, they're lost to
Older men flying like around her like birds
Only sex she will get, no love she'll earn
All men wants to guide her way
But she has to find her own path
Following her destiny as people say

A Lost Little Girl in a mans world.

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// K.

ps. I apologize for not writing anything here for a while
but I'm back. Alot of new experiences, lived my life and
earned alot more experiences, know alot more faces and
places world. More fun reading is coming. And alot more
troubled poems from my heart.

Me, Myself & Amina.

2010-06-22T19:22:00.000-07:00

Well, It's been a long time since I wrote here, and I guess you guys thought I've disappeared or something didn't you? Haha well guess what, I'm back!

Let me tell you what I've been up 2... Well I've gained weight and lost weight, so now I'm normal again, I've dating this wonderful girl, her name is Amina. She's from stockholm, a little place called Tumba and I love her to death. I've moved out from my old crib, had some problems with the person I was renting it from so... yeah...

I'll write more next time, just that I'm so tired right now, so I gotto get some sleep!

TTYL!
. K

Summertime

2010-04-20T08:00:00.000-07:00

It's spring here in Stockholm and the sun is shining, it's getting warmer aswell. Is it just me, or do all the bad feelins go away as soon as there's some sunshine? damn gotto move from this country to a warmer place :P

/ K.

FREE SPOTIFY PREMIUM

2010-04-18T14:31:00.001-07:00

Just got this invite to a free spotify premium. So I thought I could share it with my fellow readers. Klick on the link ; http://www.gratispremium.com/?ref=143325 and get yourself a free Spotify Premium! :)

You're welcome! :)

// K.

Mia Rose - Let Go

2010-03-08T09:53:00.000-08:00

feels like deja vu...

// K.

party is over.

2010-02-27T18:33:00.001-08:00

The party is over, it went good. Everyone had a good time, alot of dancing alot of people. Didn't get as much as I hoped for, but atleast people had fun.

At the end everyone started fighting tho, all guys, outside. Everyone against everyone. Mad me wanna kill everyone, but I wont. But I was close tho. Gotto have a talk with my so called friends. I treat em good, bring em home to my crib, give em food, share everything and this is what they give me. That's some bullshit. Now I know atleast who's my friends and who's not. "Keep your friends close to you, but only those who dont bring you down. Those who are good for you. That's what they called true friends"! ... And guess what. Fuck em.

// K.

CARIBBEAN NIGHTS!!

2010-02-27T10:46:00.000-08:00

Tonight is the night! Having my big ass party, Caribbean musik, dancehall soca reggae, rnb & hiphop. It's gonna be off the chaain. Oh btw, I forgot to tell ya, it's my party :)!
I'm a little nervous, hope theres alot of people!!

My gear for tonight! Simple, casual but still street!

new hot track

2010-02-25T18:23:00.000-08:00

Enjoy!

// K.

another winterday...

2010-02-20T04:25:00.000-08:00

geez, I feel like a big ass bear sometimes, just sitting and waiting for the winter to go away hahaha :P anyways, gonna make the best of it so I'm grabbing my snowboard and hitting the slopes.

I have nothing smart or poetic to say today, so I'm sorry, been out of ideas for a while. But I'll make sure I'll get one soon enough!

Oh btw, my friend brought some kickass home made real chinese food, damn that rocked!! MMMM.... delicious! Wasn't anything like the restaurants, it was better!!

Catch u later! // K.

Nice version :)

2010-02-03T11:09:00.000-08:00

Tae Yang - Look At Me

2010-02-03T06:36:00.000-08:00

once in a lifetime?

2010-02-02T15:25:00.000-08:00

We walk down the streets and you see this wonderful person and you wanted to introduce yourself, but u didn't, and then you never see that person again and you just cant stop thinking about it, thinking what if. What if this was a once in a lifetime, what if I did say hi, what would happend and what if... who would you be, what would you mean in my life?

That's alof of "what if"s.

when you want to do something do it, otherwise you will be asking yourself what if and maybe you might regret for the rest of your life. It's not about girls or boys, it's about life. Do something, dont regret, no looking back and enjoy the present and plan 5 min ahead.

// K.

back to reality

2010-01-27T13:38:00.000-08:00

Im sitting at the restaurant right now, chillin with friends and preparing the place for the party on saturday. The party is gonna be off the chaaaiiiin! Ol school music for older generation. I cant wait, even though alot of mistaces with the posters and flyers and stuff like that but its cool tho, seems like alot of people are coming anyways.

Good news, I just met this wondergirl. She seems like she have both feet on earth like we swedish says, serious, but funny, 3 years younger then me thou, but age aint nothing but a number like Aaliyah says. Cant wait til I met her again.

Wish me best of luck on saturday, if you wanna come, drop by. Its 100 sek entrance, no wardrob fee. Listen to some nice music and party hard with us. I will upload some pictures later, I think I arranged a photographer, but Im not sure yet. Hopefully that will work out aswell.

The work is going well I guess, alot of work right now, its killing me but all I have to do is keep my head up and look for the future, keep fighting. Otherwise we cant move anywere in this world, cant expand our fortune nor become a bigger person that we already are. Hopefully I will get a manager or a Co position soon.

Take care. // K.

another sleepless night

2010-01-20T19:37:00.000-08:00

another sleepless night, cant get no sleep. I dont know whats on my mind, but I dont really know what's really NOT in my mind. Seems like I'm worrying about everything.

I'm arranging a party btw, the 30th, playing some ol school jams (hiphop rnb classics), I pray to god, buddah and allah that alot of people show up, want to create a name for myself and my friends here in Stockholm as the greatest entertainers in town :).

I just broke up with my girl, the only right thing to do, since I dont have any feelings for her except that I do like her, but I dont think I could ever fall inlove with her like she has done for me. I think I still got some feelings for my ex A, but that's a hopeless case and I dont even want to digg into the past anymore. I was harsch against her on the phone tonight, but I hope she understands that's the best for us both. I dont want to trick her or something, better be real from the beginning right? I'm a grown man now, cant be fucking around like a punk...

The job is going well, I really enjoy working in the clothing store, and I maybe start working at a friends restuarant to help her out on wednesdays, that would be nice to get some extra cash. I've realized that if I work hard I dont do much stupid and hopefully none illegal stuff :P... but I'm changing now, into a responsible man, even I can see it.

That's kinda everything on my mind, plus a few more things that I cant put up here on my blog. Some are classified folks, I'm sorry :P

It's the end of january soon, the first month of 2010. I hope that everybody enjoyed their first month this year and I wish a continued happy new year. I know this year is my year, my time to shine. Work hard, stay hard and getting hard payed! Then I can spend some money on my friends and I, and hopefully as much as I can on my mom.

BTW. we haven't spoken for a while now, wonder if she's still mad at me?

// K.

finally i can breathe out

2010-01-16T15:53:00.000-08:00

Finally I feel like I got the closure I needed. It's still about the same girl, can't say her name but I still call her A, and we just had our last facebook mail chat. Everything I thought was good was not good and everything I thought was bad was good. I never thought that she loved me that much but she never knew how much I loved her, we talked it over and it would be useless to try again after 2 years of "none-talking". I dont wanna come between her and her boyfriend either, he seems like a good guy. He better be if not I'll break his legs. Back to subject. 2 years have passed and during these 2 years there's haven't been 1 day I haven't thought about A, and now I feel like I can put that behind me and walk my path of life without a weight on my sohulders.

It sure have feelt like I've put my life on hold waiting for a chance to bump into you again and try to sweep you off your feet, but it turned out the other way and you know what, I'm happy that it did :)

Anyways, I know I wrote this on the email, but I'm glad that we got in touch again, and thanks to that I can put you behind me and continue with my life. So thank you.

// K.
no longer Hamster.
you are no longer Grisen.
now we are just K & A.
I dont wanna fight for you since I have no right, even tho I want to I feel it's not the right thing to do. I hope this will make me grow as a man, and make me try to be the best man I can all time. Like I said, we all got flaws but I'm trying to justify mine. For some reason I think I will always love you

the truth about liivenleearn.blogspot.com

2010-01-14T15:11:00.000-08:00

people are people, we are not perfect and we all do mistakes. To learn from our mistakes makes us stronger, more mature and grove as people. To make mistakes are not bad, it's an opportunity to become a better person. Live and learn. My way of life.

letter 2 my unborn child

2009-12-14T15:56:00.000-08:00

as days pass by
i cant forget you
i wanted to bring you to life
and be with you as a father suppose to
when i die i hope to see you in heaven
if jesus let me in
otherwise i'll pray to see you once again
and not in the baby moniter
but as a boy, grown up, old and almost dead
i dont care, i just wanna see your face.
unconditional love. letter to my unborn child.

2years, almost 3 years have passed away since me n my ex walked out the hospital, she was crying and i was to busy with her crying I couldn't shed one tear, helped her into the cab and went home trying to comfort her, but I forgot about my own self, that I also needed comfort. So many years have passed by and I still cant stop thinking about it. How I regret it day after day.
What if I would have a babygirl, or a babyboy.
What if.

The point is that dont live your life regretting, but to rejoice. Take the choices you made and dont look back, but sometimes you look back and regret, but a choice is made and you cant take it back so just try to make the best of it. If you are that person who do live in regret, if you can do something about it, do it! If you cant, try to heal your wounds.

// Cincerly. K

first one done...

2009-12-12T07:34:00.000-08:00

ok first one done, felt good, didnt hurt that much, but I was kinda drunk tho... anywayz, heres a couple if pictures.
I wanted to put my lastname, my familys name there because we are all over the world and it's hard to find time and money to travel and go and see them, so whenever I miss then I can always hold them near my heart.

// K.

time for tattoo

2009-12-10T06:04:00.000-08:00

ok here we go.. so the main motive i want is
1. my last name (maybe in thai)
2. water (the strongest element)
3. a pheonix (for rebirth)

anyways... here's a sample, not me on the pic but something i would consider...

winter is coming

2009-11-15T09:14:00.000-08:00

Well hello dear readers. I apologize again for not writing anything for a very long time. I had to much work latley and I just couldn't find any time to just relax infront of the computer and write a few lines. Anyways I still work my ass off like always, trying to earn some money you know, haven't been to the gym for a long time, so that makes me feel a little bad but on the other hand I dont eat fat food either.

Anyway, the winter is coming now and it's getting rather cold outside, but no snow yet :( just rain 24/7. I've reschedueled my trip to thailand and I'm going in 6 months, I need to clear some things first, like my apartment... I told my mom that I'm leaving Sweden and she freaked out and we just have been fighting about everything latley and I just cant take her temper when I actually need her support, but that's my mom. Everytime something is about to change she freaks out. I haven't spoken to her for a while now, but I hope she's doing fine.
I still haven't changed my mind tho about moving back, but I still fear the changes myself and I do feel a little selfish because I'll be leaving all my friends, but I think I need to do this. Otherwise I'll just regret it for the rest of my life. Right now my only plan is to save up enough money to stay there for 3-4 months without any money from the school.

Wish me luck, take care.

// K.

is this for real or am I just dreaming?

2009-10-14T17:47:00.000-07:00

God must have noticed my suffer, my hard times and all the things I go thru, because I feel like I'm blessed for the first time in my life. Seems like someone thinks that I've payed my dues and is giving me a break. I never thought I would be able to love again, or atleast feel that I actually cared for someone else of the opposite sex, but an angel have been sent to me.

Is this the turn of my life?
Is this Gods way to say; It's ok now my son, I've forgiven you for your sins?
Is this His way to repay me all the shit I've gone thru?
and is this for real or am I just dreaming?

If I'm dreaming I dont want to wake up, let me forever sleep because I love this feeling. I'm not on drugs nor I'm not drunk but I feel high. Is this what they call the dangerous love, the natural high? If it is, I want to stay a junkie and get high from this feeling for the rest of my life, because its wonderful.

If this is just a dream, then let me forever sleep.
If this is real, then let it never end.
If I really deserve this, then I thank you for this gift.
Because this angel you cant have back.

Cincerly yours. K

old blog. 2007.

2009-10-12T16:13:00.000-07:00

omg.. i just found my old blog i used to write, and was mostly about heartaches, troubles & my ex gf... but there are some old pictures hahaha...

http://pobastic.spaces.live.com

my thoughts...

2009-09-27T03:37:00.000-07:00

dedicated to Grisen.
// Hamstern. :P

i k u z o

2009-09-24T00:21:00.000-07:00

So, it's the 24th of september. It's getting rather cold outside and I can feel the winter closing in. Anyways I got an interview today, a little nervous but I'm trying not to be. Have a hard time deciding what to wear. U guys think it's ok to go with sneakers? :P They say that shoes represent the man, so I gotto have some real nice shoes if I want to represent myself? Nah fuck that, I'll just go as me!

2days plan is:
11:00 Go to my old job, return my keys and collect my old phone, that's been replaced with a brand new Xperia... for free!
14:00 Interview with MobileDirect. Hope they have something to offer me with.
15:00 Hook up with Amina :)
20:00 It's game time at Bredäng with my fellas and the JKS Girls. So much fun!

Hope you guys have as much fun as me today. Take care!

// Truly yours. KC

no money no honey

2009-09-23T09:35:00.000-07:00

Haha the titel says no money no honey, it's from a friends t-shirt, love that quote. anyways as you might know, i dont work for Three SWE anymore, and I've been searching some other jobs. 2 people have called me, 1 from Media Markt and another one from MobileDirect. Both are salesjob as usual and I need it. I've got an interview tomorrow at MobileDirect, and hopefully I get it. Usually salesjobs isn't hard to get, but it's hard to keep so wish me the best of luck!

// Yours truly. KC

words of sadness.

2009-09-19T04:49:00.000-07:00

I'm a man who live for the moment and dont regret my choices. But there is one I do regret. And that one was letting go of you. I had to let you go because our relationship wasn't fair for any of us, and I was afraid because I was falling to fast inlove with you. I dont know if I made the right decision, but I would give anything to take it back, and for what is worth, I've always loved you and I still do. I can remember the nights when you were in my arms sleepings, I was whispering "i love you" in your ear and I could see you making a little smile in your sleep, but whenever we both were awake I didn't have the guts to tell to you.

2years have past and you are still the only girl in my mind.
Someday we'll find our paths crossing again, for this day I'm waiting hopefully.
Hamster & Grisen.

// K.

oh btw, starting an extra blogg.
http://sawadee-krap.blogspot.com
i've decided to move back to thailand for a while, to find my self and just do a soul search. check that out! peace

True friends.

2009-08-31T17:32:00.001-07:00

Sleepless nights makes a man wonder, consider about his life & his mistakes, the paths he has chosen during his lifetime. Has he made the right choices, what person could he have been today. But then I look back at my life, look back at all my friends, all my experiences and I dont regret anything. Even thou we have made many mistakes, so many that we sometimes just want to end our own lives because of the shame, remember then your friends, your family, your loved ones. All those people who will give their life to save yours. These people are hard to find I know that, but when you finally find them, keep them for life. Even thou I may not be rich, be famous or be someone import, I know I'm richer than most people because I have my true friends, these are my tresures! I may not be famous but I know these friends love and care me and even thou I'm not an important person I know that if I would disappear my true friends would miss me.

So for every sleepless night you have, everytime you are bothered, take a look at your life, and you'll realize that you made alot of friends along the way and maybe you didn't make the wrong choices after all.

Remember that after the storm always comes sunshine. live for the moment, make your choices and dont look back. If shits hits the fan, just try to make the best of it and remember, smile because it will make bad days alot better, even thou it's hard.

So I just wanna thank all my true friends for they have always been by my side.
It's just alot of love from a small man.

//Cincerly yours. Pó

Short poems.

2009-08-21T13:22:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! I've been writing some short poems latley and it's been taken up alot of my time. Anyway, this one I wanted to share with you.

If I'm Superman, then you are my kryptonite. With just one touch you make my knees weak, my body treble and I loose my breathe. I'll fight this feeling, and oneday I'll be strong enough to hold you in my arms and make you mine without getting weak

hope u liked it!
// KC

disturbing news.

2009-08-11T09:00:00.000-07:00

I just got some disturbing news from a friend!
I got something to tell this certain friend of mine...

baby, if u ever need a shoulder to cry on, a friend in need or just someone to hold, u got my number, i'm just a phonecall away. I wish you the best and I wish that the problems you have will be solved sooner or later, hopefully sooner.

// K.

sorry i haven't posted anything for a while, I've just been working and really busy, so I've never had any time to write and I apoligize for that. Anyway, I'll start writing again! Hope you guys had a great summer, I know I did!

MJ Tribute in Stockholm

2009-07-12T02:21:00.000-07:00

MJ tribute a lá Stockholm 2009.

it's all love mr jackson. we miss you.

jacket <3

2009-07-07T09:34:00.000-07:00

so I finally got my jacket that I always wanted! It it's totally purple, only cost 499 SEK ($50USD)! From the first moment I saw it I fell inlove with it, and now I'm introducing it to you!

And there you go ladies and gentlemen, the ultimate purple jacket! It's gay but it's ok, and besides, it takes a real man to wear something like this and NOT look gay! Not that I have anything against gay people, I love you guys//girls aswell! Anyway, you can find this jacket @ American Apperal!

Stay Yellow // K

my dreamgirl

2009-07-03T15:52:00.000-07:00

if someone asked me "describe your dream girl?", I'll say 2 words;
Lee Hyori.
Here are some pictures for you too see why!

oh my god, she's so hot! mcdreamy.

// K

back in action.

2009-07-02T01:32:00.000-07:00

hey people, sorry i haven't been writing! I was home sick laying in my bed and thought I would die! Ok, it wasn't that bad haha but almost! Anyway, I'm back on track and guess what I've found?

have you guys ever heard this song before? Dont think so!!
btw. rip michael jackson, the greatest artist of all time.

// K

all i need is a simple girl...

2009-06-23T04:01:00.000-07:00

... cuz i'm a simple man.

ASIAN SUMMERJAM

2009-06-21T01:56:00.000-07:00

yo I had a blast! I think I've found my soulmate on the dancefloor haha :P i got soo hooked ^^... anyway, I had fun, too drunk thou, I was suprised that I was even able to dance hahaha. Blame it on the alcohol ^^ O.o.

Anyway, pictures are coming up!

// K.

Asian SummerJAm Saturday.

2009-06-18T06:20:00.000-07:00

So here we go! It's the ASIAN SUMMERJAM in stockholm, the best of the best party of all Time! Anyway, so I'm going of course with a bunch of friends but I have no idea what to wear? I'm thinking about Red chinos, black converse shoes and just a tanktop, but I'm not sure... I'm always there with a shirt, so I'm thinking about doing it diffrent this time.

Got any ideas?

// K.

favorite song again.

2009-06-14T10:42:00.000-07:00

"Even tho I loved to keep you mine, my plan is not to change your mind. Lock the feelings deep inside, for another time."

song dedicated to someone.
you know who you are.

/ K.

happy day

2009-06-12T02:43:00.000-07:00

This morning I tried to get up early but guess what? My body and brain didn't allow me to get up 6:30 and then head to the gym! So I got up 10:00, took a fast shower, shaved my face and got ready for work! Guess what? My wallet was gone!! I looked for it everywhere for a couple of minutes **alot of minutes** and finally I found it and then I was late for work! So lets say that this morning didn't start as I wanted but for some reason I feel in my stomach that this will be a lovley day!

No, honestly I don't feel like it's gonna be a lovley day, I just keep telling myself that! Hopefully it will end up as a great day after all!!

Take care.
Yours truly // K.

happy beat :) but with a true meaning.

2009-06-10T13:27:00.002-07:00

dedicated to you! XD
could i be more obvious?? hahahaha

XOXO. K

'P'ussel 'I'n 'M'y mind.

2009-06-09T04:27:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry for what I did, but I had too. Otherwise you wouldn't be able to let me go and the same for me, I know that you are still thinking about me, and I'm thinking about you too, and promise me that you'll always keep a special place for me in your heart, because you'll have one in mine. The time isn't right for us, both you and I know that, and that's why I need my distance from you, I dont want to get hurt again like all the times before. I know what I want and that's you, but I also know that you are confused, lost and unsecure about yourself and that's why you act like you do, and that's understandable.

I wish sometimes that it would be diffrent between us, because we had something good going on. But a man should not think about "what if"'s, just accept it and go on with your life, making choices and not look back right? That's what I'm trying to do. Trying to be a man.

// K.
ps. you had me at sawadee ka.
until we met again.
XOXO

promise to myself

2009-06-09T04:22:00.000-07:00

making a promise to my self to get back to the training. new plan;

6 days/week.
monday - saturday 07:00-08:30 jogging.
monday - saturday 19:00-21:00 musclebuildning.

i woke up and realized i wasn't in shape, so i'm going back to my hard training program.
i feel that my body has become weak and lazy!! not acceptable.

sunday = rest, taking long baths and relax the muscles.
i also got some protein shakes to help my muscle to recover, otherwise they'll just break down instead of build up.

this will continue for 3 months.
a promise to my self. the promise you make to yourself is the most sacret promise of all, remember that.

// K.

Nokia 5800

2009-06-07T08:56:00.001-07:00

oh yeah, I forgot, I've told you that I got a new phone, that Nokia 5800 Express Music! It's like the best phone ever! Got 8 GB for music and the touchscreen is soooo nice! Fuck Iphone... haha

oh, I also got a Sony Ericsson HBH-DS200 to it, it's a wireless bluetooth headset with a 3.5m plugin. So I can use any headset I want. Pretty nice and the sound is awesome! A must for any gadget freak like me!

Bless.
// K.

updated with my Media center!!! Final!

2009-06-07T08:35:00.000-07:00

oki, here we go! so what do we have? I got the xbox, the Tvix Dvico 6500 Full HD Media Box 500GB, external HDD 500 GB, and I got a new laptop (HP DV-5) connected with HDMI to my LCD. I also got a Logitech Wave Keyboard and mouse wirelessly connected aswell! Pretty awesome.
I've put all the facts about my other gears on my earlier post but here goes some for the computer;

AMD Athlon 64b x2 Dual Core
4GB Ram
Nvidia GForce 9600GT 512MB
HDMI

and more !! haha it's a good computer anyway.

but the media center is finally complete now and I'm so happy!! Here are some pictures!

that's final look... but let's look closer shall we?

Ok there we see the laptop, connected with an HDMI cable to my LCD.

And that's when I hide the computer. Doesn't look like there's a computer there doesn't it?

This is the wireless reciever for my keyboard and mouse.

And the keyboard.. isn't it beautiful? haha
so the total price of all the eq...

So let's count the total price of this package...
PHILIPS 42PFL5603D 10 000 SEK
XBOX360 (incl. 2 controlls, 2 guitars and games) 4 000SEK
Tvix DVICO 6500 (incl. 500GB HDD) 4 000 SEK
WESTERN DIGITAL MYBOOK 500GB 900 SEK
HP DV5 8 000 SEK
PHILIPS DVD 500 SEK
LOGITECH WAVE WL KEYBOARD&MOUSE 900 SEK

Total price; 28 300 SEK.
and that's not incl all the HDMI cabels!
Shit that's alot of money for someone like me... haha! But I love it anyway.
If you guys getting something similar, let me know if you need help! And remember, save money and buy only what you need and not what the salesman tells you to! Peace and love.

// K.

2pac - Do for Love

2009-06-05T08:09:00.000-07:00

best song ever!
RIP. 2Pac Shakur.

// K.

coffeebreak thinking.

2009-06-04T08:00:00.000-07:00

as I sit and think about you
I wonder if you are thinking of me too
could we stop this childish act
and just realize the facts
I want you, you want me
and we both know we are destent to be
all we said wasn't from our hearts
and we got off the wrong foot from the start
pick up your phone and dial my number
cuz baby I'm going under.

//K.

be real stay real

2009-06-03T01:57:00.000-07:00

everytime i try to get away, you pull me right back
whenever i try to walk away, you put me back on track
maybe i'm not ment to be without you
what's a man to do when all i want you is to be true
you telling me that you're not yourself right now
i want you to be just you, but u gotto tell me how
i dont dare to give my heart away to someone i dont know
be true to me this time because i cant take it no mo'

i want you from the bottom of my heart and i wish for nothing more then to have you by my side, but i dont trust you. i thought i knew you but you are telling me that the person i've met isn't really you, so who have i spent my time with? i wish to met the real you someday and really find out who you are. i'm not asking you to change, i'm asking you to be real, and stop playing around because feelings are serious and nothing to play with. you got my head twisted and for some reason i still want you. is this what they call the natural high? it's fucking up your brain over and over again, but you still want more.
- I guess you're my natural high then.

talk to me.
// truly yours. K

btw. happy birthday to me. (1st of june)

Gina Rene - U Must Be

2009-05-31T03:49:00.001-07:00

ghaad i love this song!
*not dedicated to anyone, i just love this song!

enjoy!

// K.

free like the wind

2009-05-29T16:23:00.001-07:00

i feel in my belly that something have changed
this wild man is still untamed
like everyone else i need to be entertained
but now i'm not and like everyone else
i get bored and uninterested of you
so i'm moving forward hope you dont mind
cuz in my heart i've always known you were never ment to be mine.
sooner or later you'll find the man who deserves you
i'm never gonna be that man, no matter what i do
this man is still untamed
wild like a beast, free like the wind

i've realize i like my life as it is right now and i dont want to change it. i'm planning to just enjoy as much as possible before it's to late, and i've realized that you and i would never work out, i woke up and realized it was just a smile i fell inlove with and you are not my kind of girl. that's why i'm saying this, that's why i'm letting you go. take care babe and see you when i see you. hope that there's no harsh feelings between us.

// K.

haha tsw is bombing their homepage with my face!

2009-05-29T12:41:00.000-07:00

i just had a look @ topstreetwear.com and I noticed they are bombing my face on their homepage. check it out!

pretty fresh hu? haha just kiding, it's just funny, never thought they would have pictures of a pale asian dude on a hiphop site hahaha!

still working on the pictures on my media center and all that haha, stay tuned ;)!

// Yours truly. KC

long time no writing!

2009-05-28T05:59:00.000-07:00

Hello dear blogspot and dear blogspot readers!

It's been a while since I uploaded anything so here we go!
So what have I been up to lately? Oh yeah, I've finished my media center finally, I got a new computer a HP DV5 something, and it's the booomb! I connected the laptop to my LCD thru an HDMI cabel (it's not greek, its technical terms google it!) and got myself a wireless keyboard and mouse! It looks so nice! I'll take pictures later, but you should so get it aswell. Imagine have a big box next too your tv... but have a flat little laptop next to it doesn't look that bad!

And new update, changed my phone now again! I got myself a Nokia 5800 express music! and it's the boomb aswell! Great stuff of people (geeks) like me!

And the "agency" called me again and needed another photoshooot with some WESC and Quicksilver clothes, but I dont have the time!! I wish I had more time, because it's fun to be there.

Pictures are coming up, but not sure when I have the time tho, it's all about work work work now and no play...

oh almost forgot the most important thing of all. I got myself a skateboard again! Haha love just cruise around town on it, but I've lost alot of the skateboarding skills i used to have, but no worries, it will comeback in notime!

anyhow.
take care guys, I'll upload the pictures of the mediacenter, my phone and all that later!

// K.

world war 3

2009-05-26T01:37:00.000-07:00

so, here we go.
it's been long told that world war 3 is coming, but no one knows who's going to start it. The possible candidates are;
1. North Korea (motives unknown, but their army is building up and constant weapon tests indicates that was is coming)
2. Israel (motives are unknown, but everybody knows it's going to be a holy war. They have the templars behind them aswell (their organisation is known all around the world).

But these are only rumors, but rumors mostly start with some facts.
One thing they have in common; attacking US first. So what are Sweden doing during this warhype? Nothing, still cutting down military funds and we'll probably get killed first, easiest and fastest if the war starts. But we'll just play neutral as usual and say ; we didn't do it.
And the worst thing is that ancient mayaindian prophecies says that the judgement day is coming 2012-12-21 aswell, and that's like in 3 years? Is that because of natural reasons, natural disasters or is it because every country is nuking each other until the Earth is only dust in the big space?

Until to see...
If that shit happends, me and my friends will just take a spot high up in the mountains and watch while we puff puff pass.

// K.

standing still

2009-05-21T22:44:00.000-07:00

Time passes us by, we had something good you and I.
In time you'll realize you want to be mine, what if I'm not there?
Would you go back and look for me where you left me,
Do you think u'll find me there
This is the reason why I can't be moved,
Cuz' if you have a change of heart, you'll find me here.

still waiting patiently.
my heart is yours.

// K.

are you my wifey?

2009-05-17T07:34:00.001-07:00

i love this song! back in the days :)

// K.

questions in my mind.

2009-05-05T08:40:00.000-07:00

i wonder what you think, what you feel and what you want.
i dont want to play this game no more, so i'm leaving it behind.
just going to live my life and enjoy being me.
people say i need to change if i really want you
but i'm not sure if i'm ready for that
because what you see is what you get, just a simple man
no hidden walls, no fasads, just a real me.
i'm not sure what i want right now
is it you or isn't you?
are you even my kinda girl or did i fall inlove with beautiful smile?

questions in my mind.
dont know what to do.
is it you, or isn't it you?.
what should i do?

// yours truly. K

would you be my girlfriend?!

2009-05-05T06:50:00.000-07:00

nothing special, I just realized how much I love this song!

Nsync feat. Nelly - Girlfriend.

Enjoy! // K

LLyod feat. Ashanti - Southside

2009-05-05T04:58:00.000-07:00

a classic :)

buddha bless. KC

yo excuse me miss

2009-05-05T04:21:00.000-07:00

shorty now grab my hand
and pretend the floor is ours
you say you dont really dance
dont worry about it
we'll just 1,2 step
if the music is moving to fast
grab my hand a little tighter
dont be afraid to move a little closer
there is something about you
that makes me wanna save my last dance for you.

// K.

adds and soulja boy

2009-05-05T03:52:00.000-07:00

as you see, i just added some adds for fun, apperantly you can make money off it, so why not... click on them as much as you can and order stuff ;) haha...

and yes, i still say fuck soulja boy, but he did 1 good song tho, so he haven't destroyed hiphop totally, just a little bit :P... I heard his new song kiss me thru the phone, and it was actually a good song. Anyway, I found a remix on youtube, you gotto check it out! It's the bomb!!

bless.

// K.

summer!

2009-05-03T09:41:00.000-07:00

well, it's time to get in shape for summer! training starts now. I got myself some gainers to help my muscles to recover after the training so i can train twice a day, 6 days // week...

oh yeah... this is me during summer trying to be a BBOY... haha :)

if u guys are trainig hard aswell, good luck!

best wishes! // K

live and learn.

2009-05-03T07:59:00.000-07:00

life is to short, the hours we have are to few
make the best of your time, and make your time the best
always looking forward and dont look back
making choices and dont regret

this is my way of the ninja.

//Truly yours. K.

training starts again...

2009-05-03T03:13:00.001-07:00

i'm considering to pick up martial arts again, but this time I'm taking it back to my roots and do some muay thai. but i'm not sure if I have the time tho, but this time I'll just try to make some time. I get off my work at 7pm, the training starts 8pm, and whenever I'm free they have all day trainings. might be fun...
anyone wanna join me?

The place I've checked is in the central of stockholm, Stockholm Muay Thai. Going tomorrow after work to check it out.

btw. i had 1 cigg yesterday, and today; none so far.
**proud**

// K

1st of May

2009-05-01T03:42:00.001-07:00

Well, today it's 1st of May, the first official day of the summer! "Wohooo!!" that's all I have to say.

So last night me and my friend Alexander Toledo was out partying, celebrating the coming of the summer and we had a blast! We went to this nightclub called "The Bedroom", and no noone was sleeping... But there was good music and nice people and we enjoyed ourselves! But then it got to crowded so we kept moving to the next place, so we ended up at "Dem Bow", which usually is a good place, good music and alot of dancers... But last night the music totally sucked ass and there were only kids in there. The guys looked like 16 years old and the girls didn't even look older. Whattahell happend to that place? Anyway, so we ordered a drink and got the f** out and had an afterparty @ McDonalds, aka MickyDees! Alex ordered a QP Cheese and I got myself some McNuggets (I'm asian... daah)

Anyway... someone special showed up @ mickydees with the biggest and cutest smile ever. She made my night unforgettable.

Enjoy this summer people, it might not last that long!

Cincerly yours. KC

New pics!

2009-04-30T12:21:00.001-07:00

Did some modelling again, guess what?! I'm saving my hair out for a summerlook, hope you guys like it! The first t-shirt comes from "Krew" and the Hoodie comes from WESC.

Get your summergear on! www.topstreetwear.com (it's a swedish website)

Hope you enjoy the spring, get yourself a streetboard and skate some in this beautiful weather!!
Buddha bless and take care!

// yours truly. K

diffrences

2009-04-29T09:39:00.001-07:00

even thou we are so diffrent
i think we are a perfect match
i think i can learn alot from you
and so can you
this is how we grow as persons
and i want to grow my personality with you
we might go slow now
but someday
it's you and me.

yin n yang, that's what we are.

// k.

the greatest artists thru time...

2009-04-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

in my bed

2009-04-27T17:56:00.000-07:00

couldn't sleep, so i was talking to my homegirl Lydia for ages as usual. Even tho we've never met we always talk about everything for hours. That's a good friend! So we was webcamming, I was actually she dont have one, even tho I've asked her one million times to buy one haha. I took some pictures from the webcam :P....

sleep tight and sweet dreams. or in thai ; nan rapp fan dee! :)

// K.
btw; even though things didn't go as I've planned today, I had a good time.

besos.

lovley bboy mix!

2009-04-27T16:06:00.001-07:00

omg listen!

2009-04-26T07:02:00.000-07:00

there is no rnb song that can match this one!! this song is holy! We miss u janet, make some new music will ya?! :P

janet jackson - again. (1993)
bless youtube !! XD

hope you guys enjoy this one as much as i do.

K.

ol school jam! it's the shit :)

2009-04-26T06:51:00.001-07:00

whenever i'm down or sad i just pop this song, it makes me happy :).
this song is my natural high !

Hope you enjoy it.

K.

Janet Jackson - That's the way love goes.

bbq party! :)

2009-04-26T06:07:00.000-07:00

well lets see.. IT'S 20 *C OUTSIDE AND WE GONNA HAVE A BBQ PARTY AT THE BEACH!
fucking love it, it's finally getting warmer in this country!

anyway, i got myself some chicken sticks, some meats and 2 grills! it's gonna be so much fun!! :)
anyone wanna come?? :P

// K.

decision made...

2009-04-26T02:55:00.000-07:00

time to put this game to an end...

...

now it's ended.

k.

confused...

2009-04-26T02:04:00.001-07:00

i have no idea whats happening in my life right now... so confused.
i want her, but i dont want her anymore...
she is calling me, visiting me...
i dont call her nor visit her anymore...
i still want her
but i'm not sure how much i want her.
because my dream of us have faded away
and i'm not sure if i'm ready to stay
but i still adore her...

what should i do?

K.

Even though I'd love to keep you mine...

2009-04-23T10:47:00.001-07:00

dedicated to someone special...

// K.

ready or not

2009-04-23T05:32:00.000-07:00

it maybe not be now
it maybe not be tomorrow
and maybe not even next month
but someday
when we are ready
i'll be waiting for you
you'll take my order
i'll give u a hug
and we'll be happy

next time.
it's you and me.

// K.

work work work

2009-04-23T02:56:00.000-07:00

so, now i've started working in a new place, new store, same company. I got transfered to a place called Farsta Centrum, it's like 10 minutes from my crib! I do miss working with my old co-workers, but I do enjoy working here aswell.

I'm a little sad tho because of what happend with me and a special someone, but everybody needs to keep walking forward like my friends say.

// K.

the picture in my head have faded away.

2009-04-22T02:22:00.001-07:00

from a dream i've waken up
and faced reality
the picture in my head
have faded away
i woke up and dryed my tears so...
it's time to let it go.

the dream i had.

// K.

some wise words.

2009-04-21T06:34:00.001-07:00

if you want something go and get it, if u missed the chance you might regret it for the rest of your life.

// K.

Day Off ! ! ! walk, talk and Monsters vs. Aliens 3D

2009-04-19T17:33:00.000-07:00

Today I had my day off from work, first day since I dont know when. Anyway, so I called up an old friend of mine, who goes by the name mr. 4fingah Frankie, aka Frankie Boy aka Freddy. We had alot of catching up todo, so we were talking the whole day about everything, and I had really fun.

Anyway, for some reason we went to the cinema and watched the new movie called Monsters vs. Aliens 3D! This was the first 3D movie I've ever been to and it was the coolest thing ever! I cant describe it, so you got to check out the movie by yourself and experience the 3D effects! Oh yeah, I almost cried of laughter when me and Frankie boy putted our 3D glasses on! Dont miss it! One of the greatest animated movies so far!

// K.

WESC

2009-04-14T01:34:00.000-07:00

well, i did some modelling again, and this time there were a hoodie I fell inlove with! Well here are 4 pictures anyway! www.topstreetwear.com

Hope you liked em!

// K.

By your side.

2009-03-26T17:08:00.000-07:00

Great words by Sade (by your side)
Probably the most beautiful lyric ever.
Thinking of someone...

you think i'd leave your side baby, you know me better than that
you think i'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
i wouldn't do that, i'll tell you you're right when you want
and if only you could see into me...
when you're cold, i'll be there to hold you tight to me
when you're on the outside baby and you can`t get in
i will show you you're so much better than you know
when you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back again
i will find you darling and i will bring you home
and if you want to cry i'm here to dry your eyes
and in no time, you'll be fine...

/ K.

Lovley wednesday!

2009-03-25T02:08:00.000-07:00

It's 090325 today and the sun is shining! The sun was actually warm, even tho it's almost winter here, and I can feel the spring is coming!! WOHOO!! :)

Go out, enjoy the weather!

// K.

Bad Boy goin Good Boy.

2009-03-24T04:54:00.000-07:00

Well here it goes...

Yes, I'm a player, but I'm turning around my game.
The way I'm living is driving me insane.
And I dont have noone else but me to blame.
And it's a shame
My life wont be the same
But this is something I need to do.
For me.

Well... No more bad boy, just going good now.
Stop smoking, cutting my players card. After all these years I've played around I finally think I'm ready for a longterm relationship. Just need to find my wifey.

The Search Has Begun!

// K.

Gabe Bondoc - Want you. (LLoyd Cover)

party with germans!

2009-03-21T17:54:00.000-07:00

Well... Germans in Sweden!!
Some of michels friends!! Came all the way from germany to cold sweden, so we had to show em good times! Haha here are some pictures! Party up!!

We had alot of fun, hope u guys had! To bad that we couldn't stay that long since I was working the day after!

// Mr. "Party up" K

Red Light.

2009-03-17T01:38:00.001-07:00

is it you or isn't it you?

2009-03-16T10:36:00.000-07:00

it's all upside down.
whats right whats wrong?
can or cant?
should or shouldn't?...
can't find the answers anywhere, so i'm reaching out my hand
hoping someone'll help me up and help me stand
i hope that someone is you.
i had fun so far, but where should we stop?
should we run, fall, jump and walk?
or should we shake hands and say goodbye
i hope i get an answer from you
because it seems like i cant find them anywhere else.

something i had in my head.
// K.

Modelling with facial hair!

2009-03-14T04:56:00.000-07:00

Hope u guys liked the pictures! I always wanted to try the facial hair style and here are the results! The clothing can be bought @ www.topstreetwear.com.

// K.